[GENERAL] Daydreaming-seems like all I can do well :D

To my future first love,

I hope you love me back and our love it is not unrequited. I love you already and I think of you continuously. I hope you’re handsome but if you’re not too handsome I won’t mind too much. What do you like to do? Do play an instrument if you do I hope it is the piano because well, doesn’t it just sound romantic? If you can sing you will be probably be better than me because I sound like a crow howling. Can crows howl? I don’t think so. I want to do so many things. Like travel. Let’s travel a lot. The first place I want to travel to is Korea so you better learn Hangeul before we meet. Then you can choose the next destination. Let’s be really happy ok. Are you saved, do you love God? If not let’s go to church together anyway. Most importantly let us be honest with each other and try not to break my heart. When we kiss put your hand around my waist and whisper gently into my ears how much you love me. I hope I can help you fulfil your dreams. When we first meet please come up to me first and make me laugh. When I can laugh with someone I feel us if I can trust them. I guess everyone feels the same. Let’s be really close friends. Best friends. Let’s go to the coffee shop then I will order a chai latte, I won’t mind if you offer to pay. I will say, ‘are you sure, next time it’s on me’. Then smile. Warning: I am too cheap to pay for you next time so let’s conveniently forget about it. O.K. good.

I will study hard so when we meet I will be really smart and speak eloquently.

P.S obviously that picture is not mine, if it is yours don't kill me, tell me and I will credit you.

[GENERAL] Inside my mind and upcoming review on Wuthering Heights

I have been recently thinking about life as you do when you're alone in your room or staring out the window of a bus. I am still in Sixth Form/college (England's version of senior hear of high school) and have well a few months until university(College to any Americans). It use to scare me thinking about such things, whether I will be successful or not. But, these past few days I have realized and  acknowledged that I have no control over anything including my future to an extent. It seems like such an obvious general statement, but to me it's more than that. I have grown in my spiritual life as a Christian. It is difficult for me as a teenage christian to live my life right.But, then when I think about it,  that is just an excuse for me to accept an average life when I can be more than I am. When I let God take control I feel at peace. What I think is that  people, not just Christians believe that letting God take control means sitting back and literally not doing anything. But, I have learnt to pray,plan and act.

This message is short and a bit jumpy but I hope you will get something from it. By the way I am reading Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte so look forward for an intensive review. I might do several posts on the book because there is so much to say that it might not fit one post.

[GENERAL] So happy I can't breathe...Call the ambulance!

Is it possibly to love a guy you have never met? Is it possibly that the love you feel is not lust?

Well, I apologise for starting today with questions I don't even know the answers for. It makes me glad in my heart to love a person without feeling lust. It feels pure and innocent, and I am enjoying it. I pray for him when I don't hear from him for a while and when I do I cry out of happiness because he is well. I cry when he cries, I laugh when he laughs. I want to be there for him when he is weak and hold him and whisper in his ear that it is well. Should I reveal the person to you? I want to, but I am afraid if I get to know him well in the future it would be awkward that I wrote about him. Or by some extraordinary force he stumbles across this blog. However, I feel even if he does he wouldn't know that my heart and soul loves him. Just in case he does : *I LOVE YOU*.He has this habit of giggling and putting his hand over his mouth, it's quite feminine I think but it makes me love him even more. When he annoys me or disappoints me till I want to cry, I can forgive him and always do. I wish it was infatuation but how can it be when all I want is to see that smile on his face. He is tall I am told, but not quite handsome. But, I do not care because I am not the most beautiful girl in the world and my 5' 4 does not match his 6' 2. I am shy, he is not. We are like opposites but yet so alike that it feels that we are different coloured wool intertwined together.

You are probably wondering why I am telling you this or may be not :D Well, that is for me to know and you to never find out, maybe, probably. Sorry for the cliché ending. Hahaha

Au Reviour and God Bless
Afri

[MUSIC] Yiruma/Lee Ru-ma

Yiruma or Lee Ru-ma is one of my favourite pianist. Dare I say it, the best modern pianist alive. His simplicity and the raw genuine emotions which he shows through his music attracts a diverse spread of people. He inspires me to be hopeful and full of perseverance. I admire his talent and ability to translate his personality,character and soul into one music piece.

I feel as if I am not adequate to write about him. I believe that a person's true character is shown through how they perform in every aspect of life.  Well, in Yiruma I can see innocence, humility and kindness(the uncomplicated form of kindness).  I earnestly pray that I will posses that kind of character and strength. I want to be simply me and more. I don't want to be a mere product of the scum of bile produced by the world. Don't you want that?Don't you just want everyone to be honest, including yourself?  Don't worry I am not going to go on a rant about how complicated life is, because I don't believe in that assumption at all. Yes, life is not like a game with its own set of rules, which is easy for the player to follow. It is more beautiful than that. We are all like drop of water transcending from the sky; each drop form an ocean. Each person contribution, takes the world forward.

Mahatma Gandhi said, " You must not lose hope in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops are dirty, the whole ocean does not become dirty"

I don't know whether this is true for certain; I will be a fool to claim that I know the answers to life; but I like to think of it more optimistically. It saddens and worries me that certain "philosophers" or just people, can view the world with such a shaded view. It seems to be the new trend for people to be as pessimistic about life as they can. Or am I making a fictitious claims? Perhaps.
I am contemplating, the state of calmness with which I am writing this. Am I insane? Absolutely. If, I am sane, then it probably means I am conforming to society's norms and therefore I am in the box, not thinking outside it.

Take care today and look around. Try and notice things you haven't before and of course listen to YIRUMA!

NOTE: I don't know how this transformed from my favourite classical musician to contemplating about life. See, this is what Yiruma does to me!

[BOOKS] Feminine Prowl- The No.1 Ladies' Detective Agency

Happy New Year! I believe this year is going to be the year of expansion and great things to come! 

To start of I wanted to write about one of my favourite underrated female protagonist. Let me introduce you to 

Mma Ramostwe. 

In the midst of the patriarchal society of Africa , Mma Ramostwe defies all odds, and becomes the entrepreneur of the first female detective agency in Botswana. Her journey is filled with all the uneventful milestones in life, which the reader can easily identify with. She suffers a brutal marriage, has a miscarriage with her first child, and was left motherless at a young age.

 But, she demonstrates the strength of a woman in an opaque world. This inspirational woman defies all odds and changes her life and circumstances. The strength and nobility of this resilient woman leaves an impact on me and women all over the world. She is what I call, a true African woman.

Here's a quote I love from the book:

“If more women were in power, they wouldn't let wars break out," she said. "Women can't be bothered with all this fighting. We see war for what it is- a matter of broken bodies and crying mothers.” –No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency. 

I hope one day I will be as inspirational as she is. Wherever you are, work hard this year and become do your best at everything you attempt!

God Bless y'all (Sorry for my use of Americanism), See you soon.

p.s I have the whole series of the book on my bookshelf(I hope your jealous)! That's how much I love it. I would absolutely recommend it to everyone. You don't even have to like detective novels, just get it.